This afternoon I turned in a rather interesting first assignment for my Research & Criticism class (the final course for senior music majors) – my musical autobiography. I had to write about several events, people, or other experiences that have helped develop me into who I am now as a musician. It was interesting to sit down and think about all the causes, since I was little, that have led me to where I am today; putting all this into a narrative, though abbreviated, gave me a new perspective of how profoundly everything affects us, even when we do not realize it.
The more I mulled over and analyzed these events in my life, the more I was struck by what a marvelous plan God has for me, putting all these elements in place to bring me to where I am. At twenty-two years old, I have found my passion in music, my dream of where I want to take it, and my motivation to work hard to get there. I have been blessed along the way with so many supportive teachers, and had countless opportunities to learn, grow, explore, and perform. What a comfort to trust in the Lord and His control over our lives – to be able to see it clearly once in a while is a convicting experience.
So, with this new comfort and renewal of faith, I am determined to worry less about my impending grad school auditions, and focus more of that energy on doing what I can to prepare – He will take care of placing me where I need to go, as long as I stay open and trusting.
“For I know well the plans I have in mind for you, says the LORD, plans for your welfare, not for woe! plans to give you a future full of hope. When you call me, when you go to pray to me, I will listen to you. When you look for me, you will find me. . .”